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Lastnight, was the greatest night of my life. Hands down. Allow me to recap:
First off, left school in a good mood on account of I passed my proficiencies, and made madrigals. Then came home and got ready again to leave with my grandma :) We went to the flea market and went shopping together ! Then got home at like 630 to the most amazing surprise party ever. :)) and I GOT A FUCKING CAAAAAAR!!!! ahha, so my night was the best. I love my life, hha and Jordyn.
and Lafe, cassi, josh, brennan, alex, aaron, angela, mary, my MAMAA and my DADDY, and my whole family. Happy sixteenth, to me.
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| growing up ! |
[30 Apr 2007|07:43am] |
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I turn sixteen in a couple of weeks, finally. And I got a job with Jordyn at Mandalay Beach, yes ! I'm so excited. Jesus, I'm growing up, and it's hitting me all at once.
aah! hahaha.
Let's see:
I get my permit this wednesday, even though it's like 5 months overdue.
I get my first job!
I get my car.
mmmmyeeees! now I just need a man, seriously. and I want to go back to europe, where its green. back to my creepy ass hotel room with no hot water, mmmm.
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| YES ! |
[14 Mar 2007|06:38pm] |
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I auditioned earlier, and I have two solos now !
how fucking \m/ am i?
;)
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[02 Mar 2007|05:44pm] |
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Lastnight I had a dream that you came back, it was good.
I think it's always going to be like this, I'm always going to miss you; I won't ever know why.
It has been six long months since you told me you loved me.
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| Sitting at the park. |
[17 Feb 2007|03:01am] |
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And I'm remembering old times, good times.
Remember the park? We used to always be there. fucking depressing. :|
on to other things, I've made a few really good friends recently, and I'm glad. :] I've also almost completely finished my room!
I might be getting my tattoo soon as well.
3.8 gradepoint average :] angela has a boyfriend, I'm so proud of her.
Now I need to find myself someone, someone worth it.
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[10 Jan 2007|05:45pm] |
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I need a good boy to enter the picture. The last one was gay :/
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[03 Jan 2007|03:19pm] |
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Lastnight I didn't sleep, I stayed up to watch my sister cry. She couldn't sleep, fuck nightmares.
I wish I could just have a sign, to let me know you're in heaven with papa.
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| This world isn't fair at all. |
[02 Jan 2007|07:52pm] |
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not in the slightest bit.
Winter break was supposed to be amazing, but it wasn't. Christmas..... will never be the same.
My uncle, Bethel. He had rough times, was in the gutter, but got back up, and became more HOLY than any soul on this earth. Such a good person, why'd it have to be him?
My mother cries everynight, it hurts so bad to feel like this. My two cousins, left fatherless, right when they started to get to know him. Sixteen, twelve, no father. It's not right. Lord I miss him so much, he was only thirty five.
What the fuck is wrong with this world?
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| tonight |
[24 Dec 2006|10:52am] |
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Is horrible. I'm depressed as fuck.
And to make all matters worse, for some fucking odd reason, pictures of you that I've never even seen before, are constantly showing up on my phone today.
I want to see you again, your old room, your bed. I miss spending hours with you at night. I want to kiss you again.
I still can't get over the fact that I compare every boy to you, nobody is good enough :/
You've messed me up good kid, and yet I'd still give the world to see you again.
Lets meet at the texas theatres again, and stare at eachother, kiss, and let me enjoy it ten times more than I did before. If I had the chance :/
Let's lay in bed, put in a movie, you know like Red Eye, Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, and not watch any of it. We're too busy arguing about who's not paying attention, among other things.
Let's drive around aimlessly, and waste gas. You put up with my indecisiveness because you love me.
Let's wrestle at the park, maybe later I can break your car and honk your horn.
Let's get stuck on a mountain at four o' clock in the morning, and pee outside. You give me your sweater just so I stay warm.
You tell me you love me, and my life is good.
Those were the days, I think I'll go to sleep now, go back in time.
One year ago, we were having the time of our lives. Atleast I was, maybe you were just an amazing actor. But then again, you were amazing at anything you did.
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[28 Nov 2006|12:08am] |
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I hate livejournal, It's just a place for everyone to see my mistakes.
I don't get on much, maybe because I have a life now :D
Fuck yeah to going to Californa and getting pierced,fuck yeah to first friday,
and fuck yeah to LIFE.
One that is starting to pester me though. I look at pictures of me last year, and i get down. I used to be way smaller, and i was pretty cute. I just need to start working on it :)
FUCK YEAH TO PILATES! brahahaha.
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| mother dearest |
[16 Nov 2006|03:10am] |
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I love how my mother is so immature. I love fighting with her, over the stupidest shit. I love how she knows just how to make you feel extremely low, to the point where you almost believe all the insults.
Fuck that, I'm over it.
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| To make matters worse... |
[15 Nov 2006|03:25am] |
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Today, i met a man.
He looked just like you. My stomach dropped, that feeling was horrible. I miss you.
Come back some day?
I hate these times. The times when you go back on everything you've said before.
For once, in a LOOOONG while, i just wish i could call you at 12:00 am and see you waiting for me at the park...
Those time were good... weren't they? :/
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| Tonight is a sad night. |
[05 Nov 2006|04:04am] |
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You might not remember, why should you.
On this night, one year ago, I met you. I almost wish I hadn't. So much built, only to be destroyed. That night was amazing :/
I found that card today, and that rose. Almost started to believe you actually cared. I fought with myself. You DUMBFUCK, he didn't love you, stop crying, stop giving a shit about him. It wasn't even worth it. Wasn't even long enough to remember, nor real enough to cherish. It was bullshit. I blame myself for walking right into that one. I'm over it, on to BIGGER and BETTER.
Lastnight, shit.
Went to First Friday with Judy, Rochelle, Cassi, and Morgan.
AMAAAAZING, particle daughter, stroke.
Danced with cassi like a fool. No one's got moves like us baby. :D
Reunited with Jasna. "Jordan, I fucking love you. I miss you, buy me alcohol and i'll make out with you. EVERYONE! I love this girl, I used to see her naked everyday and oh my god." she had a lot to tell about me.
Met a lot of new kids, "ISN'T THERE A CURE FOR AIDS?? oh shit tyler.... We got AIDES, this is the AIDES dance."
Left FF in search of coffee, went to Olive Garden, 12:00 am.
Six bellini teas, two Caramel Hazelnut Macchiatos.
Origami penis.
MAMBO.
Arrived home at 1:27 am.
Myspace for a bit, then sleep.
Woke up, ate leftover OG.
Fuck you and your feelings, I didn't need them.
I LOVE MY LIFE. :D
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| beating hearts bby. ahaha |
[20 Oct 2006|05:32am] |
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For all the lurkers, today was amazing.
Homecoming is saturday, and I have a date.
Jake, he's kind of cute.
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| mmmhm. |
[07 Oct 2006|06:43pm] |
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i love my life.
lastnight i went to santa fe and ate at a cafe' with JUDY,JAIME,DORAN,ROCHELLE, and.. JAKE:D
mini food fights.
taking pictures of randomn people..lemme see your grill.
driving around...NSYNC baby.
walk at the park, playing with ducks.
holding hands.
a kiss.
could my life be any better?
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| life is amazing. |
[30 Sep 2006|11:21am] |
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So this past couple of months have been amazing.
I actually go out now.
I've gotten closer with old friends, and made new ones.
I let go of grudges and just got over it all.
I like myself!
Homecoming in two and a half weeks is going to be super.
I've got my eye on someone....
I sleep at night, yes.
I sing again, jordann can sing solos, since she's all confident now. La la la.
I'm so much closer with my family now.
Parents aren't as horrible as i thought.
I love my life.
So, i guess tomorrow i get my battery for my terrific camera. And possibly might even go get my homecoming dress.
:D
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| D: |
[17 Sep 2006|03:19am] |
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"BLESS YOU."-judy |
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so, i'm sick. it sucks ass.
at judy's right now. TONIGHT WAS GGGGRRREEEAAATT! KNWR baby.
"i call the short one."-creepy man with flame shirt and purse on shoulder (who does that?!?)
"STOP LAUGHING"- drunken HOTTAY talking to judy.
i can't sleep, FUCK.
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[10 Sep 2006|06:29pm] |
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life's been the same,
i'm still all torn up.
i had lots of fun with judy on thursday. :)
maybe things will get better.
why do i care so much? you don't. why do you insist on breaking my heart? it didn't have to happen like that.
feel special, i've been crying for you.
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